I am writing this after one of the busiest weeks in my life. I have had one emotional roller coaster ride this week: I have been on cloud nine, had "brain cramps", experienced awesome closeness with God, and several other emotional rides... and had to somehow work today.
Plain and simple... I am physically, mentally, and emotionally tired.
My accountability partner, Jeffery Allen, called and told me I needed to read the Feb 22 entry from Oswald Chambers' book My Utmost for His Highest.
The Discipline of Spiritual Perseverance
Be still, and know that I am God . . . —Psalm 46:10
Perseverance is more than endurance. It is endurance combined with absolute assurance and certainty that what we are looking for is going to happen. Perseverance means more than just hanging on, which may be only exposing our fear of letting go and falling. Perseverance is our supreme effort of refusing to believe that our hero is going to be conquered. Our greatest fear is not that we will be damned, but that somehow Jesus Christ will be defeated. Also, our fear is that the very things our Lord stood for— love, justice, forgiveness, and kindness among men— will not win out in the end and will represent an unattainable goal for us. Then there is the call to spiritual perseverance. A call not to hang on and do nothing, but to work deliberately, knowing with certainty that God will never be defeated.
If our hopes seem to be experiencing disappointment right now, it simply means that they are being purified. Every hope or dream of the human mind will be fulfilled if it is noble and of God. But one of the greatest stresses in life is the stress of waiting for God. He brings fulfillment, "because you have kept My command to persevere . . ." ( Revelation 3:10 ).
Continue to persevere spiritually.
A little while later, I received an email from one of Revolution's prayer warriors that offered these words...
I'm writing to tell you I love you, I care, and am revving up the prayer power.
Satan attacks us hardest when we' re tired
...Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard and which have not entered the heart of man, all that God has prepared for those who love Him.... the thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God. ( I Cor 2:9)
For My thoughts are nor your thoughts nor are your ways My ways declares the Lord. (Isaiah 55:8)
When possible, be still and quiet, rest, eat right, so you'll be strong and ready to do the work God's ordained for you.
And this one from another prayer warrior...
"Let the peace of Christ Jesus rule in your hearts deciding with finality all questions that arise in your mind." ( I Col 3:15)
Tomorrow, March 15th, will be the one year anniversary of the call that changed my life forever. So this weekend, we are going to be still, and know that He is God! I will share some of my experiences over that past week... next week.
I don't plan to check my email or blog comments this weekend. I may not even get on the computer at all. I want to enjoy the family that God has so blessed me with.
Please pray that I will "Be Still." That is hard for me to do. If I am still with nothing to do, my tendency is to find something. Pray for my wife that she will force me to be still without sedation.
I hope that these words spoke to someone else too... Remember that God loves YOU.